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Written by Amari Shaamuthi & Darkstarkiller Trigger warning: Psych ward abuse we experienced. If this is upsetting just imagine how we felt enduring this BS. So, you think Psych wards help people? I got news for you. NO, THEY DO NOT! Last year, I got into a car accident, that wasn't my fault. I was transported to Arrowhead Regional Center in Colton, CA, where instead of taking me to the hospital part, they decided to put me in the psych ward section instead. Before you say bu

Written by Voidius from the Grillet Mindspace Faction of Arlo Tailsen Blaidwen aka Blackstrike, Captain James Neiley and Loki Laufeyson aka God of Mischief and Stories! Jan. 6, 2026 https://www.deviantart.com/gabykhaleesi/art/Loki-Symbol-870735721 Staring down the muzzle of the .45 caliber gun I had in my hand, pointed at a Mischief maker, I cackled. "Really? Loki you are gunna drive people nuts you know. They will think we are stupid, dumb, crazy, definitely crazy and high k

Written by: Run ë M ë divh Warl öckë January 4, 2026 Full credits to the artist. We only adjusted the face and added the necklaces! I walked into the room with my boots scuffing the floor. I couldn’t handle what I was hearing. Another argument. Another stressed out moment. I wanted so desperately for things to be better. To grow but life is about sometimes waiting for shit. I really hate that. Sometimes things take time. It’s the waiting that sucks. I feel like I’m on a conv

Written by Arlo Tailsen Blaidwen aka Blackstrike January 3, 2026 How we defeated a PTSD episode today: I was sitting in the car and flashbacks of the scary medication, that made us loose our mind, came back all at once like a horror scene. Instead of letting it happen. I took a deep breath and I said to myself: "NO, brain that is the past not the present. I don't live there anymore! I am not helpless! But I love you. I'm sorry you went through that. We are not on that medicat

Merlin kicked his feet up on the desk, twirling a pencil in his hand. Some things just didn't come easy when you were stuck in a body of a 40 year old. Back aches and twinges. It was really annoying but truthfully painful. He looked around before grabbing a ball of rubber bands and tossing it playfully in the air. There had to be a solution to the division that was stirred up by the new additions popping up since the Dark days whatever the f**k you'd call it. There was one th

Written by Voidius Dec. 31, 2025 Bitterness soaks in the bath I watch bubbles pop here My dredge of lost causes Willow weeps and salty trails Seeing losses like broken glass Nothing feels good since when? Don't force me to smile Im fed up and in pain I took hits left and right Better not tread on my stalk Im not a fake plastic person I cry and I feel real emotions My worst is the growling I almost died this year Instead I rise from the ashes You can't keep me down Im not a tu

Written by: Main Protector Jareth Killias of The Valerian Legion system Council. December. 31, 2025 Why do my feelings not matter? Or seem not to? This isn't gaslighting. What is it that makes people hate us so much? When all we try to do is speak up and express our feelings. But no its like we are the villain in everyone's story. Perhaps that's why I hate human beings so much. I dont feel they try to understand me. Instead they judge me, they reject me and they call me bad t

Written by The Guardian Dec. 31, 2025 Waking up to the sound of the snoring was the worst experience of my life. Last I knew I was in a languishing bath with several maidens enjoying apples I’d stolen from Edun. The next, suddenly I was opening my eyes in a strange place. I’ve never known what it was like to exist in a sub-plane like this before but here I was. I got up from my rather vulnerable position and tested my magick. Yup still worked like usual. I cast a spell to clo

Written by Darkness Dec. 30, 2025 In the still of the deep recesses of the mind I lay immobile and unable to reach the light. I could see just pure blackness all around me, as thick as the eye could see. I roared and clawed at it with my talons and fangs but nothing moved and nothing changed. It was there I wallowed in self-pity and played sad tunes to keep myself company. Some days I raged at the dark around me. I screamed and growled and hissed. I stalked around like a crea

Written by Darkness 12-30-2025 In the dungeon I sit I await your calling Silently I sleep, alone My soul is writhing Misery is the touch of you Torture is the deluge of sorrows If you pretend to be a saint You will be made a murderer If you pretend to be cruel You will be called out for it Nothing you do matters in time When its the hammer and thorns Mr. I spy, seek-me-do, you tried But you failed to see me as me I am not you. I am not me. I just am. I am the darkness you fea

By Dante Hieroden December 30, 2025 Sometimes life sucks It's like chewing on pennies Dipping your toe into stickers Running into a door It's not always safe But in these days you see Hope cannot die easily It's in the trees It's in the birds It's in our hearts It's in the grass It's everywhere Don't let it go Dream darlings dream It is there we can escape It's not forever but a moment You know evil lingers But light tends swiftly Whether its Jesus or others When the rain com

Written by: Arlo Tailsen Blaidwen aka Blackstrike December 30, 2025 Based on true events. Names have been changed to protect identities Part 1: The Aphrodisiac Oil It was around September 2025, when things really took a dive for the worst from what I remember. I was in a relationship with a woman who I thought I loved, but she was not receptive to my sensitivity and vulnerability. See, abusive people don't like vulnerability, when its given willingly and carries with it a tru

Written by: Dax Highcross of The Valerian Legion Council December 29, 2025 The flames licked the curled spikes and spires of the metal citadel in the Dark Underworld. Around as far as you can see stretched hills and valleys of dark red sand and red trees of thorns and stickers that ended in sharp points. Blood dripped off these trees occasionally only to be swallowed up by the sand. The sky was dark black with red and orange hues of spiraling clouds. Black gargoyle figures co

Written by Valmar, Council Member of The Valerian Legion December 28, 2025 I stretched my violet blue dragon wings out behind me. This was the first time I had realized that maybe we all need love? Maybe what inherently is wrong with society is the lack of love, safety, hope and actions! We started telling each other we love each other inner world. And something beautiful is happening! We are starting to feel safer! We feel better. During the night we still have nightmares fr

Written by Ash Yogini age 34 Dec. 27, 2025 A slight deviation from the usual blog posts for this one. I think we need a breather! So cue the "I watched videos of Pallas cats to unwind and I can't help thinking how cute they are segment!" Okay, their little paws on their bushy tail is really adorable! They make the weirdest squeak meow. They have thick fur and love the cold. I really want to see them in person one day. I wonder what they think about when they are on hunts. I r

Written by: The Valerian Legion Council Member Arlo Tailsen Blaidwen aka Blackstrike December 27, 2025 I looked over the article and I couldn't believe it. I was outraged by the what I read. "Impound funds and redirect them to other purposes? Oh so what other purposes? Like we are all dumb, fuck you Trump. I know what is going on. You think you are so smart. Well, first off, possessing broad authority to remove sitting federal employees without restriction is a questionable t

Written by The Valerian Legion Rebels December 26, 2025 Cue: Voidius and Merlin I stared across the room at you. My look daunting and haunty. "Go ahead," I waved my hand across the board room table. He growled at me, wrapped in chains of silver and glistening with strange magick to contain the man. "I will never submit to your authority as long as he stands there at your side." I, the usual observer of council meetings, swept the rainbow crochet scarf across my shoulder and l

Day 1: My story to share with all. Written by: Merlin age 26 of The Valerian Legion, A Dissociative Identity Disorder system/Plural. He lifted a finger up from the page, eyeing the compass seated next to me on the tray table. If only magick could save him from this misery, He thought. Casually, He stroked the book in front of him, hoping that it would magically tell him everything he needed to hear to get through this depression a bit easier. Instead, it simply lay limp on th

Fronting: Unknown If I could tell you how much my heart hurts at all this tragedy and loss you'd not fully understand me maybe. Im transgender. That means something. It's more than identity. It's more than decorations. It's more than a term. It's freedom. I feel Jesus Christ would hug me and say I love you to me. That he'd walk with me as I told him my pain and he'd be comforting and safe. That is what I wish we all could have. That. Safety. Comfort. Love. It's not enough to

December 25, 2025 Body age 40 Fronting: Loki Laufeyson (age 35) What is it that makes me so fiery and passionate about protecting Palestinians, Black folks, Indigenous people, poor people, disabled people, homeless people? It's my experiences and my heart. I love you all. But simply saying it is not enough! I dont want jewelry. I dont want things. I want people. I see you all. I met some pretty awesome homeless people. I met a beautiful person in the psych ward and I will tel