If my words are Seen & Heard

Fronting: Unknown

If I could tell you how much my heart hurts at all this tragedy and loss you'd not fully understand me maybe.

Im transgender. That means something. It's more than identity. It's more than decorations. It's more than a term. It's freedom.

I feel Jesus Christ would hug me and say I love you to me. That he'd walk with me as I told him my pain and he'd be comforting and safe.

That is what I wish we all could have. That. Safety. Comfort. Love.

It's not enough to just buy shit and put on the latest scarf or shoes.

We forget that human beings matter more than things.

Don't get me wrong. I love my Trans necklace and pins.

But it will never replace the freedom and joy of being Trans and getting my Testerone. Not one day goes by that I regret transitioning medically.

I am finally being authentically me. A lot of old friends dont seem to understand but then they didn't understand my d.i.d. either!

The truth is I am uniquely me. Im not the first system to transition or be a furry. But I maybe am the first to see things around me and go enough!

So i ask you how much more suffering must my community endure to make you Trump supporters happy?

How much more misery. Loss. Grief. Tears and pain must be show to you for you to see us as HUMAN?

Same goes for dissociative identity disorder.

Same goes for Autism and ADHD.

My FasD people I see you.

My rare disorders I see you.

If I am to carry us forward I must see clearly what we need.

I think we need love. We need safety. We need comfort. That should come before anything else. Yea.

That and making sure people have the basics like clean food, water and a safe place to sleep. Clothing that's clean to wear. A place to shower. A place to store things safely. And of course community.

We have forgotten each other and we must not!

Jesus isn't meant to be a chain and ball. Your handcuffs. Your jailer.

Hekate either. Norse Gpds either. Freedom of Religion is part of our United States Amendments.

The founding fathers were trying to make things better but they missed things. That is human. They were racist yes.

If you look at my list of terms and get offended good. Maybe stop trying to control others! Maybe its just terms and you dont have to agree and you could just pass off.

I carry a great deal of sorrow in my heart this Christmas. This Holidays.

I see my mom suffering. I see my neighbors struggling. I hear about trans people not being able to get their hormones. Something must change my loves!

We can worl together to achieve the possibility of Restoration and safety and love and comfort and compassion.

If anything I said ticks in your head. Resonates within you then please consider it!

Think of what a wonderful USA we could be if we put aside the labels and terms and focused on loving each other. I actually want the best for all. Even the past people. Even my enemies. Even my exes.

I can't forget but I can forgive as many times as I must. I will never stop trying to right by myself and others. There is a path forward and it's paved with real dreams that can be made real.

I believe it. So, Martin Luther King Junior and Marsha P Johnson hey you Angels up there is love you. Thank you.

Let us find hope and freedom too! Please. Somehow!

Love

The Chaos Warlock

Aka The Valerian Legion