Project Renegade: Love & Belief

Written by Loki and Blackstrike

2-12-2026

Love is the most powerful force in this universe!

Belief (Belief Systems) is the second most powerful force in this universe!

When you look beyond the propaganda and evil being done here in the U.S.A. you will see this clearly:

There is a lack of love.

And belief is being hijacked because I mean once you create a cult, they will do anything for you. I do mean anything.

That is why Love and belief systems are the most powerful forces in this universe.

You think energy is great? What fire? No. Love and Belief systems are what make or break societies.

If we can tap into love (not obsessive love or fake love) but actual love, we can heal a nation. I believe that in my soul.

Belief systems on the other hand, well I like how well organized that people like their belief to be.

Many white people are like this. This world is messy and for them control is what helps them feel better. Instead of allowing the world to be messy because it is. Its not about love. Christianity is about control. If you can't see it, you are part of the problem!

People don't know that: YOU CAN BE LOVED IN YOUR MESS FOLKS!

If you haven't found that person who loves you like that, keep fighting to find them. I'm f**king serious!

And you know what? I can love anyone in their mess I've learned. So people who are hurting and feel messed up by society, You can be loved! I love you. I don't know always how to talk with you but I will always try to hear and listen and make changes as needed.

Last year, I discovered I had a rage issue. Yup. Not surprising, after all we have been through, it makes sense.

I didn't like how I alienated and hurt some people. It was wrong. I accept I was in the wrong. So I started sussing out why I do have so much rage. Its a lot of unprocessed trauma. So I started processing it. Yes, even in the toxic situation I'm currently in.

I'm a person whose pretty much had to rebuild my entire sense of self back up, yet again, because of tragedy and trauma.

So in this rebuilding, I see many things I dislike that I was taught. I'm breaking it off and changing it.

Like how I relate to people. How I see myself. How I navigate simple things even.

If I can do it. You can too! Look, I don't know what the details are with many of us on the side of being oppressed, but I am on your side too. I have been through shit too. I am non-binary and transgender, AuDHD but I'm also Dissociative identity Disorder.

As soon as people hear I have D.I.D., they immediately conclude I am crazy and dangerous.

I mean I would hope that would have worked to protect me, but nah not one bit. Instead people like to poke at me like I'm a science experiment or lab pet. Or try to f**k me. That's even more annoying, boring, predictable and lame. All the previous men, including last years, y'all lame ASF. Not sorry to say that. Good riddance.

As for the oppressed?

Y'all we must find a way to communicate and hold space for each other. Instead of attack each other. This will not change our history, if we just shit on each other. That's not helping the situation, okay?

So, tomorrow I will hopefully have a car. The first part of my plan to get myself safe. And then soon moving.

After which, I will start my project renegade with or without help from all these loser people who I contacted and just shoved me aside like I was a joke.

Steve King got rejected 30 times before he was taken up for his books.

Lady Gaga was rejected by 9 record labels before the tenth signed her. She also faced severe bullying and doubts from her peers, who claimed she would never be famous.

Yungblud (Dominic Harrison) has stated that every major UK record label rejected him early in his career. He said the experience was being told no by executives at every turn and having the industry dismiss him until he built his own fanbase via social media.

Jason Momoa faced significant, daily rejection and struggled to secure acting work for years, particularly between his early role in Baywatch Hawaii (1999-2001) and his breakout role in Games of Thrones (2011). Despite his early success, he ended up so broke he could not pay his bills and was struggling to get auditions.

These are famous people who had to endure humiliation, fear, abandonment possibly, rejection, pain, suffering before they got in.

I'm just focused on saving U.S.A. and that's a tall order!

I dunno how to get all these people who are being oppressed on the same page but I need to try something right? I dunno I just refuse to bend my knees anymore for anyone and anything. If I kneel before you, it is the greatest honor I can give to you and I don't do it for just anyone.

My whole system. The Legion, now is working on our ethics, our morale, our code. We swear by this now:

The Unbreakable Vow of Love: To honor others and ourself. To protect others and ourself. To unconditionally love others and ourself. To have a language of love. That means, we check ourselves now when we are triggered and ask does this meet our oath? If not, we work on it. Our goal is to change our entire essence to one of love, courage, truth, justice, hope and trust. We don't sit blindly by when someone is being hurt. We don't freeze frame and watch like a deer in the headlights anymore. We jump up and do something now. Its really hard to change PTSD but we are doing it. Little by little.

We need a leader of some kind? Someone who can bring people together at the very least?

We don't want a white savior. ICK. Right? So...

Instead, let me be the bard. I can sing actually. I can dance. I can play instruments. I can gun the gambit of gender presentation. I can do art. I can write poetry and songs. I can write stories. I can snap both my fingers on each side. I mean bard it is! I can gather people, I know how to negotiate. I've done it enough times at anime expo. Like to buy stuff lol. I've played enough video games with complex character explorations. I've learned a lot about people from just observing.

I think I know how to do it. I just need to learn more about organizing. I think that is important. I want to focus on safety too!

So, I'm just waiting on my plans to kick into motion for myself, personal safety is important! At least living wise. Then I'm down for you know...Project Renegade...a plan to save U.S.A. I will figure out how to get the word out without worrying about gestapo!

I'm working on this even while sick as heck. I got a cold. It sucks. When it rains it pours I guess.

But I'm refusing to let my self sink into despair anymore.

My storm is not yours.

I must find a way to find the eye of my storm. Today was the first time I reached it.

I was upset and I felt the emotions around me...and I sat in the middle of them...observing them...and in awe of the fact that I finally achieved what I set out to do. Now to teach this to everyone in the Legion. We are learning how to stay in the eye of the storm.

Step 1: Trauma healing: Learning how to observe emotions and thoughts instead of reacting with them. Eye of my Storm.

Step 2: Chose how I want to respond instead of reacting. How to Storm ride.

Step 3: How to Tame my Storm. Find Peace with it.

What is the storm? Emotions, triggers, thoughts that are negative and related to overwhelm, anxiety and PTSD. That is my storm. I didn't ask for this storm. It just happened to me. I didn't ask for trauma. But now I must make peace with my storm.

I love metaphors. So first I'm learning how to team build with my Legion. My system. Once we are a bit more solid. Which we put this on a timer to go in tandem with getting the car and moving. We can do it. I know we won't solve everything. We will still have PTSD but as a team? We can achieve so much.

And then we try team building with outside people. Y'all I refuse to give up on my dream. I will not give up on my dream. You can't convince me too.

I may be 5'3" and 149 pounds but I am fierce like fire and when I set my mind to something it happens. I have seen evidence of this through smaller scale things. I just need to work toward a larger one. Building the... can't say it. But You know us Rebels...we won't let the Empire strike us back! lol

A little Star Wars humor. heh. I prefer Dune, Stargate and Star trek universes but Star Wars is alright. I also love Lord of the Rings. And Marvel mmm.

So you may think I'm lame because I love comics and fantasy places that's just fine. I will break the barriers. I just gotta think about a lot of things, research more and get my Legion on the same page.

I can do it. Watch me.

Love,

Loki & Blackstrike